ok.. let's have some serious blogging... gt mood to blog liao...

this few days, i was being trapped under the problem between kw and j.. but now.. things had becomes easier to handle.. i feel so bad to kw.. i appear to be heartless in front of my fren.. but rite down my heart, i was not feeling good.. i know i had not been fair to kw maybe cos of j.. i worried abt him.. his studies, his lifes.. but i cant turn back.. and i dont wan.. it will be better for both of us to be like this.. even thou i have to be cruel to him.. i believed that.. like this he will be happier..

as for j that side, sometime he gave mi those feel but sometime i feel that its a wrong feel.. i duno whether is it a crush or wat... but i promise to think over carefully and not to hurt anyone else anymore..

when i thou things are much easier to handle, there come another problem.. i think my cousin have some interest for j like i do.. but she told mi she has not and she dont know herself.. but aft talkin to her, i can more confirm tat she do like him.. wat to do.. i think i will withdraw back.. and let her have him if he like her too.. i wont struggle on anymore...

the feeling to like a person is so so tired as compared to being loved by a person.. its true.. but y i still fall for him.. its kinda tiring too.. rite now.. i dont feel anything but to remain the way i am now but without those problems..

i am going crazy 1 day soon..