Good news! our company get the tender for AMK TC.. but someone approach me to ask if i wanna to go over.. i am stuck.. duno wat to do and wat to choose.. really damn hate decision making.. argh.. up till now i still duno how to make decision.. haix.. wat to do ??

i am so confused..

this is the best place where i can say out all my unhappiness... at least it wont raised its voice at me.. it will let mi say out every and single unhappiness.. ppl always say this "gt any problem share it with your friends or who eva close to you" but i did.. results i got back is not the way i want.

yesterday, went back to help out Renuka at around 11 plus. everyone is crazy abt the fire that occured. when everyone is rushing to do out this advisory letter, they wont be able to spot all the mistakes, the printer become naughty too.. things jus won't go smooth.

was pissed off.. whereby we gt to rush with time to reach the exhibition site at this time where we can't make it. nobody is there to cover.. i will be most willingly to help my team members be it exhibitions, events or wat eva even if they don't appreciate me.. because "there is no I in TEAM" ... but sometimes i feel that the treatment is not fair.. i can be helping my team all the times.. but sometimes it turns me off.. where by jus this reason 'she also need to be responsible for her family' can excuse her from coming in early.. her event is not a last min things. if that's the case, everytime this reason can be used for every single event den every time she dont have to come in early for event and go off early during work.

for the event, we are not brief too.. questions raised by residents, we could not answer.. for mi, MAYBE still can bluff the residents thru' but for renuka, she dun know anything abt property stuffs. no meeting is being arrange, no breifing was given. boss is also pissed but no advise was given to her..

wat eva it is, i spoilt your day.. i am jus trying to explain the problem but things turned out to be different from wat i expect. turns out to be raising his voice at me.. sending sms that "you can go home" when we at already helping out at the events, "survey cancelled" when things are already done out.. i feel so so sad when i saw this msg..

if i blamed her, i WILL NOT go to help out this event i can give u an excuse of having terrible stomach cramp and i dont have to go.. i still willingly to help, still tolerate the cramp and work.. if i blamed you, i WILL jus leave aft setting up the event.. the way you say things are jus not right..

when she came at around 4 plus, she asked joy "roger ask you to come ar" den she shaked her head.. but did she think that its because of her, joy gt to come down to help out for this event?? WHAT IS THIS!!!

u treat her good, you nv scold her or wat eva.. but she dont appreciate you!

she is my team mate, i am jus angry over the treatment to her and to us. i dont blame her. jus a short moment of anger.. and i also cant blame her. we are a team.. i will only blame her if she is not my teammate.. i have no other choice but to accept her unless i leave this team then i can blamed her.. can dont talk to her....

maybe i am too busybody to this issue also.. next time i will jus care my own business.. jus do my work.. carry out my duties at the events.. wat eva comments i heard i will keep quiet.. sometime trying to help ppl, thing dont turn out the way u wan.. but end up both of own mood was spoilt.. or maybe you are disappointed in me too.. i dont perform up to your expectations.. i dont work well.. maybe u also regret taking mi in to your team.. if so, u can talk to mi.. i can always transfer out..

every single time when i helped renuka and it's out of my work scope i still helped... but know what, everys single time, she will say some appreciation words to me.. this is called friends or a team...

learnt some lessons yesterday.

but i still appreciate u.. still love u as usual.. u are a great boss.. and thanks for ur time and petrol to drive me around to help them take the photos.

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